In a moving proceeding, David Tarloff described a constant battle occurring in his head and pleaded for mercy as he was sentenced on his first-degree murder conviction, a conclusion that came after repeated mistrials and findings that Tarloff was unfit for court.
Tarloff, 47, never disputed killing psychologist Kathryn Faughey in February 2008 in her Manhattan office. Tarloff had never met her but intended to stick up her officemate - a psychiatrist he hadn't seen in 17 years - in hopes of netting tens of thousands of dollars to use to take his sick mother to Hawaii.
His defense argued that the often hospitalized, frequently delusional Tarloff should not be held criminally accountable for the bloodbath. But prosecutors said despite his psychiatric condition, Tarloff - whose doctors had found him to be obsessed with religion - behaved deliberately and knew he was doing wrong.
"His illness doesn't negate the ability to assess the morality of his actions," Manhattan Assistant District Attorney Evan Krutoy said in a closing argument. "Convict him. Because he's guilty."
But defense lawyer Bryan Konoski told jurors that "David's reality is nothing like any of you have ever experienced in your life."
Tarloff was diagnosed with schizophrenia while in college, when he told physicians he felt like his "brain was falling apart." Over the ensuing years, he reported seeing the "eye of God" on a kitchen floor, believing his brain was talking to him as Satan and thinking he was the Messiah, medical records show.
By early 2008, he had become panicked about how a nursing home was caring for his mother, and he was fixated on getting her out. He came up with the robbery plot targeting Faughey's officemate, Dr. Kent Shinbach, who had been the first doctor to commit Tarloff to a hospital.
Tarloff told authorities he figured he would get Shinbach's ATM card and withdraw $40,000 or more. He later told doctors he believed he had God's blessing for his plan.
It took a turn when he walked into the office and encountered Faughey, a psychologist who specialized in helping people with relationships.
He slashed her 15 times with a meat cleaver, fractured her skull with a mallet and seriously wounded Shinbach when he tried to intervene.
Tarloff told authorities he hadn't intended to hurt anyone but thought Faughey was going to kill him, though he also has told doctors he thought she was malevolently associated with Shinbach.
Prosecutors noted that Tarloff bought weapons for the robbery, called ahead to find out the office's hours and successfully avoided authorities for a few days before police identified him through fingerprints.
Insanity defenses, like Tarloff's, are offered in less than 1 percent of felony cases nationwide, and only about 20 percent of those are successful, researchers have found.
Tarloff was initially found mentally unfit to stand trial. Then he was declared competent, but his behavior deteriorated during jury selection in 2010 and he was found incompetent again for a time. A trial last year ended in a hung jury. In additional to first-degree murder, Tarloff was convicted in March of second-degree murder, assault and attempted robbery.
Some of Faughey's six siblings attended all Tarloff's court dates.